Well the in laws went home yesterday, and now the house is once again quiet. Too quiet, once again.
The pain came out of nowhere, like it usually does. Sledgehammered, as I call it. Brings me to my knees, and the tears fall like rain.
That's where I am tonight. In pain, talking to her, missing her. Yearning for a touch, a whisper, anything.
But I will go to bed and hopefully at least maybe dream of my girl. I miss her more than any words could ever express. At the end of each night I still always have one dream or prayer, that God takes me soon. Takes us soon. We don't want to face ten, twenty or thirty years ahead without her. We need to be with her again. Soon. But I know it is in His hands. All I can pray for is for Him to be merciful and take us soon.
To once again be the family we used to be.
So, I will pray again tonight for that, just like I do every night. May God be kind, and have mercy on us and take us to Jennifer. This life holds only pain. But we made that promise, so it is entirely in His hands. May He and Jesus grant us this one prayer.
We love and miss you Jennifer, every minute of everyday. Please help Him understand, we are doing the best we can, but I don't know how to live without you. We don't know how to live without you.
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