Finally home

Tony was discharged from the rehab hospital late in the afternoon on Thursday. It was so nice to finally have him home!  It has been a very busy week for us, and I am looking forward to not having to run to the hospital a couple of times a day, but I think I am most looking forward to sleeping...actually being able to sleep through a whole night. 

This last week has been an easier in some ways...Tony has been on a lot of pain medications, as well as the normal meds he takes daily. I don't know if it was because of all the meds or from the pain itself, but we only had a few rocky moments with regards to Jennifer. After a few days we were discharged from the acute care hospital to a rehab hospital. When we arrived there, he asked me if she had been to this particular rehab before. When I lost my job at Valley Hospital, we went on Tony' s health insurance, and after a few days the care management team would then transfer her to an assisted living kind of hospital until she could be discharged home. 

The transfer team had just put Tony on the bed, and then they left. The charge nurse said she would be in to see us after she had gotten report from the transfer people, and got his chart together.  So Tony asked me then if Jennifer had ever been here before...I lied to him, because he was already starting to cry and get upset at the thought of her being there before. In fact she had been in the room right next to him. I hate lying to him. But I felt that I needed to in this instance. He has a very short time off from work for his recovery and the doctor said he has to keep a positive attitude so he will recover faster.

I know that the truth would not help him at all right now...but I still feel terrible for lying. I will tell him eventually, but I had to go with my gut feeling, that telling him now would just be a bad thing right now. I also told the charge nurse about Jennifer being here before, and that she had passed away. Just in case they recognised her last name, and also because she look as so much like him. I asked her to pass it along to the other nurses and cna' s. 

I am just so thankful to have him home again. I know that somethings will be hard, and with my back it will make things a little difficult, but it's just he and I now.