How can this emptiness and pain keep getting worse? Spent most of the last couple of days in tears at one point or another. Dear God I wish this stupid mothers day was past already. Oh I know that every single holiday, birthday etc will be difficult this first year, I wish I could just fast forward to next year already. Not that it gets easier still, they just had their five year death anniversary for their beautiful daughter Betheny. There are others in our group that it's been even longer for them.
I don't know what we would do without our support group, "The Compassionate Friends", The support group utilizes Facebook to stay in contact with each other. Beautiful poems are shared on the open pages of Facebook, and the is a closed Facebook page that is open only to members of The Compassionate Friends, where you can go and chat with other members.
So today is Mother's day. I didn't sleep very well last night, went to bed in tears and have had a couple of episodes already this morning. I called my mom but that conversation ended in tears as well. I know I need to get the emotions out but now have a bad headache as well as a stuffy nose. I think I need to take a xanax and go lay down. Nothing else much to say today.
I miss Jennifer more than I could ever begin to say. My emotions are ragged and painful. Jennifer I Love You so very much!!!!!!
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