Storms

As the summer draws to a close I feel more and more sadness, I don't know why this is  happening suddenly, I  am crying more and I feel the pain engulf me with every breath I take. I day dream of you, wanting to hold you once again. Yet just the thought of you can rip pain through my heart. I miss you so very much, you are constantly in my thoughts. I feel storms all around me, crashing upon me, drowning me in pain.

I wish you back to me. I wish you to have never left me. 

I know that you are gone, yet still with me everyday. But I cannot touch you, I cannot hear your voice. I cannot hold you. Where you are, I know it is beautiful. I know you no longer feel pain, and you are safe and at peace. And though we long to have you back, and wish this never ending pain away from us, I know you are in God's loving arms.

Our lives will never be the same again. The road ahead looks long, with many, many more storms ahead to be weathered. We will do our very best to stay afloat, to try not to surrender to the pain of losing you. 

You are, and always will be our light in our world of darkness. You alone will be the reason I will live each day, because I know that's what you would want us to do. I know we will see you again. I will hold you again. That's what keeps me going. 

Until I see you again.